Nursing a sick baby.

My almost three year old daughter is in the hospital, we don't know what's wrong with her, but hopefully the MRI we're waiting on will give us some clue. A week ago,she was a normal three year old, now she can't talk, she can't walk, she can't stand or sit up or even hold her head up. She's like a newborn. She doesn't respond to us, she doesn't move, she just lays on the bed and cries.

She won't eat or drink anything, we keep offering her favorites and special treats. She doesn't even want ice cream or soda. Today is the sixth day of exclusive breastfeeding. She was on an IV for a couple of days, but they took it out yesterday.

The doctor was trying to criticize me for nursing her, but my milk is the only sustenance she's getting. Maybe they should figure out how to get some food in her, instead of dumping on me for keeping her alive.

I'm also nursing my newborn, and the doctor says I shouldn't be tandem nursing because they need different types of milk. I know that, but my body is producing newborn milk, and there's nothing wrong with giving my older daughter newborn milk, especially considering the alternative is nothing.

They said that if I stop nursing her,she'll decide to eat, but it doesn't work like that. I went home last night while my mom stayed with her, she didn't nurse for over 12 hours, and she still wouldn't eat or drink.

And nursing is the only thing that consoles her. When she's not nursing, she's crying. We try holding her, singing to her, offering all her favorite things, etc. Nothing has any effect, except nursing her.

I guess I'm just looking for people to comfort me and tell me I'm doing the right thing. And has anyone been through something like this? Does anyone have any idea what this might be?

Her IV is out now, and she's starting to be responsive. She isn't crying all the time anymore, and she even looks at the TV now.

She improved slightly. She is a little less fevery and can open her eyes, but she's still constantly screaming and writhing in pain, and not eating or drinking.

Joon's in the hospital.

Joon's in the hospital. They finally decided to admit her overnight. They should have fucking done that last night. They were going to just send her home with tylenol again tonight. It's just unbelievable that they could just ignore the fact that she's spent the last three days doing nothing but screaming and writhing in pain, and hasn't been eating or drinking for three days! I'm sorry, but tylenol is not going to fucking cut it. She's so weak she can't even hold her head up or hold her eyes open. She can't walk or even stand. She's been to the ER every day for the past three days, because they kept dismissing her and she kept getting worse! She is literally constantly crying and screaming. Even when she's asleep, she's still crying. And every few minutes her eyes fly open, her whole body tenses up, her limbs flail, and she SCREAMS as loud as she can. It seriously looks exactly like when I was in labour, during the transition stage, so I'm sure the pain she's having is as bad as that was for me. Earlier we thought she was having seizures, but we were told they're not because she's still screaming when it happens. It just looks like seizures, but with screaming. I don't know, but it's obviously something we can't handle at home, as evidenced by the fact that she keeps getting worse.

I had to come home, because Penelope couldn't stay there, and I have to be here with her. Andrew is staying with Joon, and we're going to go back in the morning.

There's a lot more to the story, that I need to write down, but right now I just really need to get some rest so I can go back and help out with Joon in the morning. I don't know if I'll even be able to sleep, with all this worrying, and being so angry at the idiot doctors who just don't give a fuck.

ER

Off to the ER again, Joon has a probable ear infection. Why do these things always show up when the appointment line is closed for the next three days?

Joon singing

Joon singing: "Twinkle, twinkle, little star, how I know my ABC's."

Six weeks!

Penelope is growing up so fast.

She's six weeks old now. She's awake and alert most of the day, and sleeps most of the night. Nights have gotten so much better. Well, most nights. She still has colicky time, and sometimes it's hell getting her to sleep, but then she usually sleeps for a long time.

She smiles all the time. Fathers Day was the first I noticed that she kept smiling socially over and over again. She always wants to be held upright so she can look at everything. She wants people to interact with her constantly. She absolutely hates being in the car seat, and scream constantly the entire time we're driving.

And she's teething! When she was just five weeks old, I had two people point out that she has two teeth visible just below the gums! I didn't believe it at first, but it looks and feels like teeth, they're just where teeth should be, and they look exactly like Joon's did right before they cut through. It's just so crazy.

Penelope was 10 pounds when she turned a month old, so I decided to try her Goodmama diapers on. They fit her well, so we've been using those now. I want to get a few more cheap used ones. Her first goodmama was the panda one, so I'm going to be keeping that one for her memory box, along with her first newborn diaper, which was a panda Muttaqin.

I crocheted an awesome hat for Penelope. It's a brain slug from Futurama. It's so cute, and I'm pretty dang proud of it.

I took Penny swimming in Joon's kiddy pool. She seemed to have a good time, and it was super cute.


I earned this ribbon for nursing Penny for six weeks!



It was so much easier to get this ribbon than it was the first time I got it. Besides some engorgement when my milk came in, and some issues with overactive letdown, we haven't had any issues. Nursing has been going smoothly, and I expect to continue for as long as Penny wants to.

Soon I'll be getting the three year ribbon for Joon!